((i'm trying to make a classical sort. this character is from oriental japan after all. feel free to jump in. it is long but it is a good journal and i put much time into trying to come up with it.))
-Mystery of mysteries, a lifeless body.Symbols and hope layer upon each other endlessly,The one that gave me form and color,Has a twisted heart of crimson and azure.-
A woman in a red kimono with a green sash, stood in the room. Her long pink hair was partly done up in a bun, and the rest was cascading down her back. Her pale white hands trembled as they wrapped a woolen shawl around her, part of it on her head to make a sort of hood for her head. This woman was Envy,and she continued working away in her tailor shop. Though the temperature was icy, the only coldness she felt was in her heart. Why is she still living? what is there to gain from this? From life? from anything in fact? Her house was always dreary looking and pictures of her former life made it even more so. Sad reminders of days that were once filled with joy, hung upon the walls. Days that were now long gone and unattainable, forever beyond her reach. The clock in the corner of the room ticked away, letting her know that she would never again she dearly beloveds, no matter much she endlessly searches.
-Endlessly endless, where am I? A momentary moment disturbs me, though I close my eyes,Those lost words I once believed in Now fade away and are cast off, beyond the sky.-
She closed her eyes wearily, reminiscing her wretched past. she began to envision crimson wings dancing across the sky, like it had in her old home back in the demon world. Pulling her hand away from the window, she pulled the shawl more tightly about her. So tightly that, in fact, she almost envisioned wrapping the warmth of light and feeling that it will disappear in scarlet velours if she did not wrap it tight enough. The sin whose fate was torn, tonight cries with her hoarse voice. For once she was human, but that was so long ago. When the townspeople found out what she had done, they hung her, still with the same clothes she was wearing now. Hell was horrible, even after she was made into a sin. She tried to think it didn't matter anymore, that nothing mattered anymore, until the tears that ran down her cheeks could not overcome her sadness. While she was in hell, life in the human world did not stop, the life of spring into summer burned on for thousands and countless years. Time passes even though we do not wish it. People in that world were selfish for some reason, thus she detached herself from everyone and began to grow apart with each passing season. But even if the other sins are hated by humans and their hunters, if every creature alive hates them, she'll still be waiting for them, always true.
"So please keep smiling like you all always do."
-The world spins round, reflecting in the depths of my azure colored eyes. My despair is mirrored in those two eyes.-
the hunters. The ones who looked with eyes full of hate. With disgust. With eyes that looked like they would would spit on them if they had the chance. Why? why did they view her like that? like she were nothing more then a monster. they shunned her, but in hate or fear? She, Realizing the reason it all ended, having to go back to those days, cried a little. She had been exiled for slaughtering a family of four in that country. All because of jealousy. She never asked for much. All she wanted was for someone to see past the insanity, past the creepiness. To find that she too does have a soul. To not be unwanted. Was that all too much to ask in this world? apparently so. She rocked herself back and forth. Back and forth, whispering mad things to herself. Painful, aching tears flowed down her face. She had always the horrible realization that she would never be accepted in this world. It just seems there's no place in the world for one like herself. That's why the hunters tried to snuff out her kind. Unwanted. Filthy. But it's not true. It's not true. She kept telling herself. We too have a soul. we too have a heart. We're not monsters. Why do you only see that when you look at us? when they once came to visit a beautiful country,There, hunters that killed the dark ones were what they happened to see.they were crude and cruel and if they had their way, she should have died.However if the higher ups wishes them gone,This order will not be something long drawn. but Kayo had only one question of this.Why, for the first time, are her tears not of bliss?
-The moment after ,I felt a trembling trepidation, for the memory. In the stream of eternity, flowed and faded away. This is the cradle into which the universe's young rage overflows. -
She left the room and closed the door softly behind her. "siblings,"Be happy" are the words you say, there is no one stronger, no one could ever replace you." she stood in the hallway. "This season becomes more cruel as it passes. But I will protect you through it. Until the final day."
The countries were made great by everyone living in them. Even though there are some draw backs. But she saw to it they would continue to grow and prosper, like the color white, always pure and life would always be complete. But soon the people may come to punish them all, while they deserve it, she determines that they need not fuss. Because she will fight to end whoever they send. So she sent them all away to have this mess mended.
"As long as you all are gone , far from this horrid place, come what will. None of them will care and you all they will not be able to kill." she told them. "I ask you to not worry about me, as you need not. I am glad to have seen all of you again, even if it was for a short time. If all the world believes you are evil, then so am I for I share you're blood." and With that, she shooed them away.
-i am to be left in a live in an ever-changing world that admits no understanding.Certainly, in a space between dream and reality.siblings, Even though this thread that controls me is cut,Don't go, please don't go, stay connected to me. For the end is the end, without forgiveness.Though my words and feelings are in disarray,Meanings and definitions are all dismantled,In the miracle where past is bound to future. With just my thoughts and passions,Progress and destruction continue forever,No matter how much I praise these fleeting days,The smiling faces I loved will be gone tomorrow.-
Envy walked out to the masses of hunters, smiling against their hate filled faces.
There was once a place with an evil rule,. So the hunters thought and Envy says that they comprise a fool. The only ones that had any say, were her siblings who remain free to this day. She though is in prison. This cell she was in was so cold, it was freezing her poor lips and in this faintly lit room, a spider's thread shimmered softly. The silence hanging in the shadows and of the hunters random cruel remarks to her at times are drowned out by the cries of a sad voice on this cruel sunny day. Shivering in the shadows, she realized that it wouldn't get warmer if she continued to stay still, so she paced herself around in circles like an impatient child. Within this gloomy cell unnoticed, her silhouette appeared behind a glass watching the water droplets on the window that fell like its own tears. But after a while of looking, she realized it was her own tears streaming down her face. It was not raining outside. Reaching out to the window, she pressed her cold hand to it, as if feeling every crack and splinter in the glass would bring her back to reality.
"I fore're devote myself to my only true Priere...... for everything in my world."
She rubbed her eyes for the tears that streamed down her face. The hunters dragged out of her cell and proceed to take her outside to the public, where a soldier holding a long sharp blade was waiting for her. it stood on a wooden platform and the public masses surrounded it. her siblings, disguised had joined. you had also joined this spectacle for whatever reason. They chained her so she would not escape and made her kneel. At last the time of ending has come. As the bell that announces it starts to ring. Without looking to the faces of the crowd, Envy only said what her siblings had always said.
"oh, It's tea time."
Thus did the blade come down and slice off her head. The crowd cheered and after a while they left.
"if we are ever reborn I just want you all to know, That i would like to be with you all again"
((finished! and no you are not to bring her back to life. at all. not for this journal.))